The Anxiety of Change...

I know its been a long time since my last post, I just havn't had much motivation to write the past few weeks. But as of yesterday I found out that Devin was accepted into ASU, meaning we are moving. At first I was excited but after about 10 mins serious anxiety set in. I don't know if this is really what I want. I am terrified to move! And if you really know me, you know I do not do well with change and this is a big one. So, now what.

Well, we could always back out. And continue with the shinanagans that are occuring right now and all the goods and bads that go with. Out on my own, no rules, no one to answer to. Cute little apartment close to all of my friends.....But, continue to struggle looking for a teaching job as I bounce from one mindless stupid job to another. Plus be 2500 miles away from my family. Not to mention the constant reminder of how broke I am.....

Moving brings other challenges. Getting all my shit there. Do I sell stuff? Do I ship it? If so how? Where does it go when it gets there? How will I meet people? Will I be ok living at home again for a while? Can I find a job? What about my friends back home...will we truely stay in touch? Sooo many unanswered questions. These are the reasons why I feel like I am about to puke right now...But its not all bad. FREE FREE FREE FREE FREE HOUSING!!!!!!! Woot. I will be close to my family again (see possible negatives.,..) Its also a fresh start with a lot of new possibilities and experiences, not to mention Devin's schooling.

Ugh...I honestly just don't know what to think. Hopefully the trip in November will clear a lot of things up for the both of us. In the mean time, bring on the self-induced stress....